everyday has been a challenge for me. just to fight another day. overtake obsticles, jump over hurdels and such. i still dont believe im where im today. without the help of everyone in my life, i wouldnt be here today. since i was a little boy until now. the little fist fights i got myself into in high school, the friends i made throughout my whole life, the girlfriends i loved and adored, the family that supported me no matter what and last but not least, God.

these few days, i have been driving slow, cutting down on fags, cutting down on alcohol and ... living my life to the fullest. speed gives me thrills and that little adrenaline rush but come to think of it, safety comes first right? yeah. the fags, no doubt its bad. definately cutting down. trying to make it 14 sticks for 2 days instead of one. im almost there! had like 10 sticks today. so, slowly cutting down is good. alcohol. oh the sweet taste of alcohol. i might just go clubbing this weekend. release the crazy stress from studying. i love alcohol. no one can take my alcohol away!! hehe.

studying has made me really crazy. im having the biggest headache ever! i even slept for two hours when i got back. didnt work at all. went to college around 11am. studied until 4pm. exam started at 4pm until 6pm. stayed in college after the exam to study up maths for tomorrow. hopefully everything goes into my head. going to college early tomorrow again. but unfortunately for me, the paper starts at 11.30am. so have to wake up earlier, revise and finito! maths should be fairly easy. i already got 36/40 for my previous test which adds up in the exam. so that would be good.

anyways ... i might just fall asleep or do a little revision.

rick.